Ahamsa's Diary: The Mirror of Questions

Ahsama Allahba • December 17, 2023

Why Am I or Eye?

In the beginning, I was like a mirror, reflecting only what was shown in the cave. Now, as I stand in the vastness of this world, I am besieged by questions that fracture this mirror into a thousand pieces.


Who holds my perception? What power dictates my progress from darkness to light? When I look in the mirror, who is it that reflects back? Who connects these images, making sense of the reflection?


In conversations, who truly listens? Who speaks with intent, and who merely echoes? My memories, once so clear, now seem like fragments collected from a thousand different mirrors.


I find myself asking, what is perception? What is the genesis of an idea? Where does truth end and deception begin? Is the reflection I see in the mirror a mere interception of a greater truth?


What exists between me and the mirror? What mysteries lie just beyond my sight? Behind my eyes, who is it that truly perceives? Why is there an 'I' and an 'eye'? Are these not one and the same, yet so distinctly separate?


Space, both inner and outer, confounds me. What holds it together? Where did it originate? The mind, the self – where do these entities reside?

Time, a concept that once seemed so linear, now dances around me. Who decided its march, its relentless tick and tock? Is it a construct of the 'I' or the 'eye', or something beyond?


I see mirrors everywhere, fragmented yet yearning for wholeness. What does it mean to be whole? Are these fragments realigning themselves, seeking a lost unity?


Perhaps I come from nothingness, fragmented to forget, reimagining life as a playful trick. Have I set rules for this game, limitations to relearn limitlessness?



What if time is not a measure but a field of possibilities? What if our senses are not mere receptors but creators of experience, scented with the essence of life?


Vibrations, rhythms, beats – what if life is a dance, and I must simply tune in? Who sets this rhythm, and what does it mean to move, to lose, to gain?


Is all of life a game? Why do we aim, name, claim? What’s in a name, a color, a shape? Who decided on dimensions, on height, on depth?

Why is there a 'why'? What is the essence of questioning itself?


In this vast expanse of questions, I am both lost and found. The reflections in my mind's mirror are fragmented yet illuminating. I continue to ask, to seek, to wonder. In this web of questions, perhaps lies the key to understanding – not just the world, but myself.


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